my new story

hai...its quite a long time im not writing here since i was posted to miri. :)
for your information..for the past 2 years...there been alots of sweet and sour memories that i cherish with my family,my husband, my son and also welcoming my twin babies girl.
well...i just want to share my experience being diagnose to a twin pregnancy..
it was in the mid of june if im not mistaken. my husband was around because of gawai holiday.
i was not well at that moment,so i told my husband that i had breast tenderness,and always having mood swing.
my instinct predict that im preggy,but im was not to sure because my period was not so telly.
i bought pregnancy test kit,and there you go!POSITIVELY PREGNANT!double bar youu...
so my instinct was right..because the symptoms was nearly same as i pregnant my 1st child.
so i asked my husband accompany me to do check up..for the first scan,i can saw my baby figure.small as a peanut!(mommy loves you!)and the doctor keep on scanning my tummy..suddenly she scream...'whoa!i think there not only one...." i was thinking what the hell she's talking about. so she keep on scan and scream again "whoa!madam...congratulation!u got twin!" so i nearly got up and slumber badak said "huh..where?" because i cant believe it ma... so she showed me where my twin fetus are..there they are..i nearly cried.
inside the car,(my husband havent know the happy news) he told me is our baby are ok?i just smile and laugh at him...and told him that we got twin...he still his still not believing condition..and i showed him my scan film..i saw his face and he laugh of joy.
month by month my tummy getting bigger...bigger than usual..and my twin are healthy throughout my 9 month of pregnancy.
there are quite fews problem that i had during my pregnancy,such as severe edema at my lower lims,my tummy also edema..so painful.i cant hardy sleep.sleep in sitting position is my style that time.

38weeks of gestation

i still had no urge to deliver.but my doctor admit me for delivery because twin baby should be born atleast 37-38 weeks to avoid any problem.
so i gave birth to my twin at 38weeks of gastation..
i gave birth them through vagina delivery..it was the same with normal delivery...just you have to push harder and save ur energy because you have to gave birth to 2 babies..so the interval between them was 8 minute..
babies girl was born 27/3/2013
Evonne Leah Indap was the first to came out @ 11.56am and
Evette Shea Della came out @ 12.04 pm
they was a healty little babies..but my evette are admitted to scn because she had cord around neck.thanks God she's ok..admit for observation only.
so only evonne and me are push to maternity ward.
i gave my first breastfeed to evonne.felt the bonding between us..until now evonne will manja2 with me.
my evette dalam petang baru datang dekat mommy..masa datang...muka evette kenyang...she's cute!her face was fluffy.
my 2 little girls..mommy love both of you so much...and also evan..you always in mommy's heart and mind.

today,
my twin girls already 7 month...and they already learn how to sit byu them self..
its time for me to sleep..
good nite.will cont tomorow

Really hate myself right now!

Hurm..maybe I'm not grateful to Him..but He always be good to me,listen to all my problem and help me until its solve..He's my Holy Father's above..even He's not visible,but I can still feel His love..
Sometimes,when my prayer has been answered by Him,and I'm still not happy with it..dear Father,please forgive me..I'm was so sorry for what I've done.You have a great plan for me ahead..don't leave me Lord.I need You everytime..because You are the Holy Father that create me and mold me since I was in my mom's womb..I now that You love me so much,and I love You too..
Sorry Lord if I'm not grateful on Your plan.and I promise I'll not doing it again.
Because I'm mad to my self..because I choose this.not you Lord..
I'm sorry..
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1 hari rasa macam 1 minggu

Yah...ya rasa ko elaine!lagik la ko macam tok klau..udah bagus bagus ngan laki anak..kak ya berpisah..heii..
ya!ya!aku menyesal,tapi bukan boleh diundur balit koh..itu lah perasaan kamek masa tok..nyesal tak sudah.walaupun hometown sendiri,tapi rasa nya berpisah dengan en.suami memang teruk rasanya.ditambah anak masih kecil lagi yang masih memerlukan kasih sayang bapa..ya Tuhan..ampuni dosaku,jikalau aku tidak bersyukur atas rencana Mu..
Hati memang berat nak tinggalkan tempat lama,tapi kamek udah melapor dolok di kuching.mun lah kamek sik melapor ariya nang sik la kamek tok ada di sitok knektok..huhu..
Tiap hari rindu dengan rumah di KL..rindu en.suami,rindu kawan kawan di tempat keja lama..rindu jalan jalan,pergi church..semua la..harap harap lepas tok mama ngan anak mama sik kan berpisah lagi dengan en.suami.sik betah ai..tiap hari merindu..
Setiap kali call en.suami,sungguh sayu suara nya..meruntun hati.bercakap dengan cuwin "balik sini cuwin..tinggal dengan papa k?mandi sama dengan papa k cuwin (sebab cuwin suka main air)..nanti papa bawak g taman.."Berulang ulang en.suami bercakap dengan anaknya..hati siapa tak sayu..mama rasa ingin menjerit!
Tiap hari mama lihat muka cuwin..slalu sedih..macam tidak dapat terima semua ini.mama juga win..tapi apakan daya,mama perlu berkerja untuk kita sekeluarga,sama juga dengan papa k..harap cuwin faham suatu hari nanti..
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