i pity u..but u not pity to urself..

go back la girl...pity to urself la..u have dignity..why u so ego and majak ka ngelaban?now its already too late..i forgive u because i pity u..i m not hating you..i just want to see how far u can stand still with ur ego..now everyone in that house against u..huuuhhhh...dont know what to say again girl..dont play2 with my family..i told u..but u dont want to hear..now..what u want to do??

think before u act!
hate u not..but pity

konvokesen kedaraan...

kes berlaku di suatu tempat di bumi ini...cekidaut!!

gadis2 bebaris mau di spot cek

spot cek bermula...uhhh...malu mai merkang!!

simbol kedaraan di kening

muka muka ceria selepas konvokesen kedaraan..

nasib sikda berlaku di malaysia...hehe~

look!!! i found the REAL SPONGEBOB!!!!!

toing!toing!!

peminat fanatik spongebob!

my dream house

few days ago my eldest sister asked me to buat rumah together with them on our tanah at kampung lusut area..since then i told my husband and he also interested in it..im searching the interior design for my KITCHEN 1st..because i spend my half of my life in the kitchen :P i love cooking!so..those photo below maybe may inspired me to build my future kitchen..

this one simple

cosy

nice!

just nice!

Dining room

hope my dream house will come true!!

(0_o'')laporrrrr~~~

baru kol 4pm???ingatkan kol 6...lapar adei...tadik kan dah mkn nasik???perut elastic ka??tahan..tahan...

piggy bank ting tong!

tik tok tik tok...time goes very fast..nearly end of Oct already...
and welcome Nov!

but my life still the same..not much thing change..
ermm...cuma boleh bermimpi only..biasa lah hidup org yang mkn gaji bulan ja..gaji slalu enough2 only..
if can..i need a banker in my house

example like this piggy..

..becoz boros ma...huhuhuhu...sorry hubby..i cant manage our money wisely...janji evan cukup susu n pampers..
but i need Banker machine to control our in out money...just use for important thing only..ermm...can i???i try couple of month before..but still cant..huuu..
need my mom advise soon...oh gosh!!

he is Yours Lord!

today..saturday,my baby evan will be baptism at St Mary Chaderal Church KL..
 Son,mommy love you so much..but our Lord Jesus his love toward us is more deeper then the deepest ocean in this universe..
mommy surrender our life to Him son,because without Him died on the cross..we will not save today..or we are not exist today..
Son,
please be a good christian and be His loyal follower because He made you became mine sweetheart..
from now on baby...you are His now..so do mommy and daddy..

congratulation baby on your baptism...
love,
momma and papa...
xoxo...

dont play play with fire work!

..its beautiful but once it gather together..it may explode in your face!!
jangan buat aku marah wahai budak hingusan..bagus la ko dah sedar yang ko hanya penumpang parasit yang boleh menyebabkan keluargaku tension..siap la kau..sedia mental ngan fizikal dulu sebelum di hambur ku ngau jako jaik..u make us HATE u!!not we simply HATE u!!understood??

hal remeh...huh...mcm budak2...

http://www.hmetro.com.my/articles/RTMmohonmaaf/Article

KUALA LUMPUR: Penyiaran sebuah rancangan kartun terbitan Walt Disney di TV2 yang menggambarkan Nabi Nuh a.s bersama keluarga dan sekumpulan haiwan menyiapkan bahtera bagi menghadapi banjir besar berlaku secara tidak sengaja.

Sehubungan itu, pihak RTM khususnya TV2 memohon maaf atas kejadian itu dan akan lebih berhati-hati pada masa akan datang bagi memastikan ia tidak berulang lagi.

RTM dalam satu kenyataan turut berharap penonton akan terus memberi maklum balas untuk menambah baik kandungan siaran TV2.

Menerusi rancangan kartun slot Mickey Mouse and Friends yang disiarkan kira-kira jam 8.30 pagi semalam, Nabi Nuh digambarkan sebagai seorang lelaki gempal, berjanggut panjang dan botak sedang memegang pelan membuat bahtera.

Bahtera itu disiapkan tiga anak lelaki, menantu dan isterinya bersama sekumpulan haiwan yang turut bertindak menggunakan kemahiran masing-masing bagi memudahkan penyiapan kapal besar itu sebelum banjir tiba.

CEH...REMEH JAK PUN MOK KECOH..PIKE CDAK JAK..TOK LA BAGUS PAKE BIAK BLAJAR..KATAK DIBAH TEMPURUNG NAR!

Endless Love

'Marriage is the golden ring in a chain whose
beginning is a glance and whose ending is Eternity.'

 Firstly i would like to wish CONGRATULATION! to my dearest sister and brother in christ Sandra and Devlin, Nancy And Daniel on their wedding that will be celebrate on the month of November..

Dear sister and brother.. 


Alam perkahwinan adalah salah satu kehidupan yang baru yang akan ditempuh oleh kita. bersedialah wahai saudaraku dari segi mental dan fizikal kerana bukan sahaja bahagia yang akan datang tetapi setiap kebahagian akan ada terselit kesedihan..tetapi jika pandai menangani dengan bijak,kebahagian yang lebih indah menanti..

bagi si isteri..

setia lah pada suami mu kerna dialah yang telah terpilih oleh Tuhan untuk menjaga mu seumur hidup. Jangan lah menyakiti hatinya,menghina dan memburuk buruk kan suami mu kerana semua yang terucap di mulut si isteri adalah seperti doa.berdoalah dan bersyukurlah pada setiap dugaan dan kebahagiaan yang datang kerana setiap hal yang berlaku ada hikmahnya.sambutlah setiap kepulangan suami mu dari tempat kerja dengan pelukan dan ciuman atau senyuman kerana itu akan membuat lelahnya hilang setelah sehari suntuk berkerja.

bagi si suami...

jagalah isterimu seperti kamu menjaga ibumu..sayangilah dia setiap hari bagaikan tiada hari esok.jagalah maruah isterimu dan jangan memalukan mereka kerana tanggung jawab seorang isteri sangat besar dan hargailah apa yang mereka lakukan untuk mengekalkan kebahagiaan dalam keluarga.hormati dan sanjungilah mereka kerana isterilah yang mengurus rumah,melahirkan zuriatmu,menyediakan makan pakaimu dan tidak membuatmu lapar hingga kadang kadang mereka terlupa atau mengabaikan diri sendiri untuk menjadi isteri yang baik buat suami tersayang.

dalam setiap perkahwinan tolak ansur paling penting..walaupun ada sapa2 nguai..sebab masing masing masih mempunyai ibubapa dan keluarga.jangan lah bergaduh tiap kali nak balik gawai or cuti..bergilir2 lah..fahamilah hati isteri..fahamilah hati suami..kerna masing2 merindui ibu bapa masing2..jika ada mulut yang mencaci atau mengumpat..pekak kan telinga..janji kita tak buat dosa dengan ibu bapa dan mentua..bersabarlah dan berdoalah jika terjadi..kerana Tuhan itu adil dan pengasih..

ini sahaja nasihat2 yang dapat akak berikan kepada adik2ku yang tersayang yang akan melayari kehidupan baru tidak lama lagi..jangan menyesal dengan pilihan hati..bersyukurlah kerana setiap pasangan ada keistimewaan nya..CHEWAHHH!!

p/s:sorry nda ulih datai majlis ktk..huhu..singin ka ngau...meda gambar ja ila la..present2 wedding dah berik.sorry laban simple,ka meri ke besai ngai ke bilun nda muat ga..tusah..hehe

remember this..You don't marry someone you can live with, you marry the person who you cannot live without.

love,

elaine 

xoxo

Christmas is around the corner!!

JINGLE BELL..JINGLE BELL!
times past very fast..pejam celik jak dah mok sampe bulan Nov kakya bulan Dec..hehe..bulan Dec was the happening month for me since i was small..its Christmas month!!when i was little,me and my others sibling will work together to hang the christmas decoration on our christmas tree..we'll make the beautiful christmas tree ever!we wrap the empty boxes with present wrapper asume that is our xmas gift..hehehe...pity us..but we still happy!!
mom will start to bake cakes and biscuits 1 or 2 weeks earlier..so my sister and i will help her in the kitchen.loves the smell of her bakes...urmm..yummy!
times passed by and we all grown up already..the christmas spirit still strong..and now already married and have kid,so i decided to celebrate this year with my little family..:)
still thinking about the main  menus to cook but..here the will do list:
1.nasi minyak
2.ayam meask merah
3.daging masak hitam
4.mix vege maybe..ermm..
5.kek lapis
6.biscuits & cookies..will order from others
7. ...................
8. ...................
9. ...................

*any suggestion??hehe...got brain freeze!

for my little evan..still looking for xmas costume or santa costume for him..hehe..like those below

baby santa!!

snow baby!!

or this xmas tree costume..hehe..looks funny n cute!!maybe i can let evan sit at the corner of the room and pretend like xmas tree..hahaha

but where is the plasce to buy this xmas costume in KL??

for papa evan plak...ermmm...suprise!!!!hehe
owh..not forgeting my lil sis that will coming and celebrate xmas with us..hehe...yay!!happening gitu!!

purple or ungu or armythyst or papel..watever u call it..as long as i LIKE it so much!!!

well my fav colour ma..my husband always asked me..when i beli baju ka,kasut or other stuff..why alway the same colour?PURPLE..hehe..i answered him..u dont know meh??
my wedding theme also i choose purple n white..my eyes also i choose purple ..hahaha..crazy of purple.dont know why..this colour suit my eyes..and its suit my body also.
beside purple i also got another fav col..anyway..all colours are my fav accually.because colours make the world beautiful!!

LOVE PURPLE,
XOXO..:)

evan poke me!!

this morning evan just poke me!he put his tiny little finger inside my NOSE while im sleep!hahahaha....noty evan!

Evan 5 month yesterday!!

today my boy pegi cucuk 5 bulan ngan bertimbang...wah!besar dah ank mama koh!berat nya 6.5kg..ok la ya..sik obes..hehe..kakya kol my mum in miri..my mum said baby singgai berat lagi..umo baru 3 bulan dah 5.3kg..minum cucu moo...tapi sian nya ada asthma..poor my baby singgai..get well soon k sayang?mommy love u!
evan time cucuk memang kompom nangis..tapi sekejap jak..ek..ek..ekkkk jak..pasya ketawa nya...pelik mamma..balit tadik aku nguji sik berik penadol ngan nya...sampe la ke petang..pike tek demam..sikda juak panas badan..Thanks Lord!berkat susu ibu nok evan minum selama tok..memang mujarab menjauhkan segala penyakit sebab susu ibu banyak antibodi..bangga ku menyusu Evan..love Evan cuwin!

im coming home!

yea!yea!
perasaan gumbira bercampur sedih masa terima surat dari KKM nama aku dalam senarai menunggu mok transfer..hehe...lom g kompom la..tapi..ati rasa sedih dah sebab mok ninggal KL...macam best jak diam di KL tok..tapi,yalah..bukan tanah tumpah darahku..huhu..KL..love you so much..even hari2 ko sibuk..will miss Nilai 3 oso tempat aku slalu shopping..erm..banyak gik tempat ku lom explore eh..huhu..
call hubby nanyak mok tolak sik tawaran,hubby advised sikboh..terima jak..huhu...makin gundah gulana juak rasa..lom puas gik ku diam di KL..dolok masa dapat tauk keja di KL bukan main eksen sik maok..nektok ngegeh sik mok balit...hehehe...nang ngegeh pun..sebab life aku dah ok d KL..serasi bah..
mun boleh rasa sik mok jak aku pindah..mula2 ngisik borang transfer,sik confident nar dapat..sik nyangka juak dapat..apa2 pun..biar Tuhan tentukan hidup aku..mun nya dah pilih sia..sia la aku..mun sitok..sitok jak la aku...tok nok aku mintak selama tok kat Nya..dapat juak atlast...tapi dapat nektok nok molah perasaan ku bercampur baur..
tempat kerja ku sitok pun best juak..wpun ada sorang 2 orang nok sik betul ulah..kerja pun rileks,mun mok mintak cuti pun senang juak sikda berebut2..ARGHH!will miss my fren also...huuuuuuuuuuu....
apa2 pun..go with the flow...masa untuk balik u...IM COMING HOME! :)

The miracle of His power!!

The 3rd chapter of life begin! (my 1st chapter of my life is when i was born to this worl..and the second is the day i became Mrs Billy!!)

On 8/9/2010
I had an appointment with gynea clinic.it all started with my irregular period that is since February this year.
so i had my 1st appointment with specialist on that day,and the doc has scan and doing a routine examination on me.
At the end,my doc confirm me after the scan and diagnose me i had PCO(polycystic ovarian cyst) and my both ovaries effected, which i dont really surprise acctually becoz as a med staff i've done my own research about my irregularity of my period online.so thats it!
some said its really difficult to get pregnant if u had PCOS.
And every married couple of cause really wanted a baby soon.but for me at that time,i just told my hubby about my condition.Thanks God that im married a great husband.He said he will wait and if so,we can do adoption.but i really know what deep inside his heart a big hole there same as mine.Start from that day,i told my husband to pray.praying for miracle to happen.And he did and every night he prayed.

After that day,doc prescribed me OCP-oral contraceptive pills DIANE 3.5mg to regular my hormone and period and Metformin to reduce my weight(over weight lo..hehe)..so the 1st OCP i took is on the 8/9/10 .I took it regullary..except 1 day i missed 1 pill.i just took the pill at any time.not a same time everyday.

I had a terrible feeling after taking OCP and metformin.i had a tender breast, bad nausea,sensitive nose-cant smell my own house.i will vomit.my feeling said maybe it just the effect of OCP and metformin.which i just ignored it..

Until 27/10/10 my 1st cycle of DIANE finish,but the effect of it still persist.and worsen.i supose to get period at this date but not any spotting or bleed came out.but i just wait for another day to bleed.
On 28/9/10 @ 1am while watching Gulliana & Bill series about how difficult they're want to be a parent.so i had this funny feeling,maybe why cant i do my on UPT.so i got up from my sofa and heading to toilet.And wait for 5 minute for the UPT result to appear.

SURPRISING!! the result was POSITIVE!

I cant believe myself,still sitting on toilet bowl,rubbing my eyes several time.I ran toward my cousin that at 1am already in deep sleep.I woke her up to see my UPT..she still in mamai condition.and said its POSITIVE!! wow!! i on the top of the world!! my cousin slept again after that,but the excitement and overwhelm feeling that day make my day longer than ever.cant wait to told my husband tomorow!!
So the next morning,i had my UPT test again..and the result still the same.
But im worried,when is my LMP(last menstural period) ? maybe its on 16/8-i got spotting at that day.
I told my husband and he is the happiest man in the world i think on that day!

And my biggest worried is..im on OCP when i conceived!!
Oh Lord! im hoping for miracle from You..hope my baby is fine.Its really worrying me.
so i decided to do ultrasound in private clinic. But the Doc in the clinic said,according to my scan,maybe my baby had 50-50% growing normal or not growing at all.because the effect of the OCP.
Only God know hows my feeling at that time. I just hold my tear to fall. My heart keep on praying and asking God,why this happen to me??why this time??why im on OCP i get pregnant?so this question keep playing in my head.
But i dont blame Him..because i know its maybe some of His plan. I keep on praying until i reach home,seeing my husband face my heart felt like stop beating.How do i want to tell him that any second i will ruined his dream to become a dad..but i have to tell him.
With my tears pouring down like rain,i've told him everything.
He was shocked and speechless.I saw his tear falling down to his cheek.its the first time i saw his tear!He said maybe it wasnt real,I shown him our baby ultrasound pic. He just stare at it for a long time. felt like i want to scream,but i have to be strong for him.Then he kiss my tummy and i think he cried again..oh Lord! i cant bear this anymore. we're very hopeless..i just surrender all to You! if you want to asked back my baby after you gave us..go on Lord..because its all Yours.
I told my hubby not to put so much hope on our baby until i confirm everything with my specialist doc. I ask him to keep on praying for our baby.may everything will be fine.

STILL HOPING FOR MIRACLE

Yesterday,5/10/10
I had met my specialist doc and she said she will scan me.
she told me that my baby was fine and the OCP will have no effect on my fetous.
she scan me and inform me im 5 weeks pregnant and its to early now to see the baby.
First of all,all i can said is ALLELUIA TO THE LORD!!!! My heart shouting for joy! and i swear to my self and to Him i surrender all to You our baby life from the 1st heart beat of his/her life begin..he/she will forever Yours!!Amen!
i've told my hubby and he couldnt believe it until i've shown our baby scan pic..

THANK YOU LORD FOR THE BLESSING AND YOUR MERCY TO US..I SURRENDER ALL MY ENTIRE FAMILY AND MY UNBORN BABY TO YOU.FOR YOU TO MOLD AND USE US FOR YOUR GLORY!KEEP ON SENDING HOLY SPIRIT TO PROTECT US LORD..PROTECT MY BABY.
AMEN!

p/s:KEEP ON STANDING STILL IN GOD,NO MATTER WHAT HE HAS TESTED US.BECAUSE HE JUST WANT TO SEE HOW WE CAN HANDLE WITH HIS TEST AND STILL LOOKING FOR HIM TO DO SOME MAGIC ON US!

Lagi lagi kes buang anak!grrrrrrrrrr...!!

sedih,haru tengok kes buang ank terjadi mostly everyday!mana perasaan kasih sayang yang ada pada ibu bayi tersebut..takkan la sayang pada bapak bayi tu jer kot...sebelum buat tu berpikir pikir la dulu..pakai kondom ke...makan pil perancang ke..pancut luar ke...ni tak..ikut nafsu jer..lepas termengandung,hah..start la gelabah!nak bersalin cari toilet,semak samun pastu campak sana sini macam baby tu tak de nyawa mcm anak patung.yang paling sedih nya ank tu dibuang di sungai,longkang dan yg kes arini ade ke patut buang kat pam flush jamban..memang mangkuk hayun tul mak die tu..bongok!aku la paling anti baby dumping ni..the very sensitive issue for me..because im a mother already..naluri ke ibuan begitu kuat sekali...even ank org lain nangis,i also nangis..thanks Lord for give this special feeling for me.

kan dah dibuat baby shelter untuk org yang xnak ank,lepas tu dicemuh pulak sebab boleh menyebabkan kes mengandung luar nikah berleluasa..apekah bodoh nya mentality masyarakat sebegitu..diorg suke lagi tengok baby ni kena buang kat sungai2.kat parit2..mungkin diorg ingat baby tu bole jadi duyung ke??berenang renang..i support this baby sentuary,at least the baby can have a chance to breath in this world..

JURURAWAT..OOO..JURURAWAT..

Pernahkah anda terfikir untuk menjadi jururawat? Marilah kita luangkan masa sedikit untuk menjadi seorang jururawat. Amat mudah.

Pertama sekali, sekiranya anda sudah berumah tangga dan mempunyai seorang cahaya mata yang baru dilahirkan, cuba anda bertanya kepada si ibu atau si ayah, sama ada susah atau senang untuk menukar lampin anak pada setiap hari tidak kira siang dan malam.


Kedua, andai kita masih mempunyai kedua-dua ibu bapa, tanyalah pada diri anda andai mereka lumpuh dan tidak berdaya untuk melakukan kerja, di manakah anda pada waktu itu dan apakah yang akan anda lakukan?


Bagaimana anda akan melaksanakan tanggungjawab anda sebagai seorang anak?
Mudahkah kita menjaga seseorang yang lumpuh?

Ketiga, anda seorang lelaki yang gagah perkasa, namun berapa ramai yang gagah bila melihat darah, berapa ramai lelaki di luar sana yang bersedia melihat mayat setiap hari?

Beranikah anda sebagai lelaki sejati merawat pesakit yang 90 peratus nyawa mereka berada di tangan anda.

Andaikan pemergian mereka sudah ditakdirkan, namun anda dipersalahkan oleh ahli keluarga pesakit, bersediakah anda?

Lelaki sememangnya mahir menggunakan mesin, tapi adakah mudah merawat manusia, di antara mesin dan nyawa manusia, yang manakah lebih bernilai?

Senario di atas hanyalah 1/100 daripada tugas seorang jururawat.

Pernahkah anda terfikir betapa sukarnya bekerja sebagai jururawat?

Kerja empat orang, jaga 40 orang dengan pelbagai ragam pesakit.

Doktor bagi arahan saja, yang buat kerja jururawat. Kalau anda tidak percaya pergilah melawat.

Pesakit tahu buat aduan tapi tidak pandai berterima kasih.

Mereka menyelamatkan banyak nyawa, namun orang tidak peduli.

Jururawat bermasalah hanyalah seorang dua, tapi jangan dihukum 80,000 orang jururawat yang lain.

Jururawat dikritik, namun tidak pernah dengar jururawat mengkritik.

Tiada waktu rehat diperuntukkan dalam waktu bekerja, namun mereka tetap bekerja sepanjang masa.

Takut dikritik masyarakat kerana jururawat tidak buat kerja, sedangkan mereka hanya berehat sekejap saja.

Bekerja lebih masa adalah perkara biasa, kalau tidak percaya tengoklah kad perakam masa.

Bukan semua dapat tuntut elaun kerja lebih masa, banyak alasan, banyak masalah birokrasi.

Jururawat hanya tahu bekerja, tetapi mereka masih tidak peka hak mereka sendiri.

Orang kata kalau tidak tahan bekerja jururawat, berhenti saja.

Tapi orang lupa, jururawat manusia biasa, yang mempunyai hati dan jiwa, mempunyai anak-anak dan keluarga.

Anak-anak di rumah juga perlu dirawat dan dijaga.

Kalau semua jururawat berhenti, bersediakah anda menjadi pengganti?

Bolehkah hospital beroperasi? Tanyalah diri tanyalah dengan seikhlas hati.

Masyarakat takut penyakit berjangkit, tetapi jururawat sentiasa terdedah dengan pelbagai penyakit.

Menjaga pesakit banyak tekanan, tapi ramai orang buat tak perasan.

Kerja mereka sungguh luar biasa, tapi orang pandang biasa saja.

Jagalah kebajikan mereka, janganlah sampai mereka berhijrah ke luar negara mencari kerja, kelak kita tidak cukup pekerja.

Jangan pandang sebelah mata bakti mereka, kerja mereka sungguh mulia.

Mereka tidak pandai berkata-kata, cuma tahu bekerja.

Mereka simpan di dalam hati, entah sampai bila boleh didengari.

Kerja mereka sungguh mulia. Tiada jururawat hospital tidak akan berfungsi.

Apakah kebajikan mereka sekarang ini sudah mencukupi?


A MILLION THANKS TO THE WRITER..AND THOSE WHO APPRICIATE NURSES..
taken from facebook

BeautiFUL or BeautiFOOL??

Not much thing i want to talk about here this time..becoz while im writting this im working...keh..keh..curi-curi mah..patient here and there..but not really busy la..blessed to work here..with my lovely patient,i learn to appreciate what life is.
The place im working right now is just for sort type of people can come..in case of emergency they will accept the case also but for admission..ermm..nope.they welcome ONLY army :)
So,now im in the VIP ward that care for the family and the own VIP people..many of my colleague from other department said that working at my ward is stressful and the patient so fussy..i just smile at them and said 'they are not like what u thing,snob,fussy or anything else u want to say..but..taking care of them is much easier from the ordinary people.'because the ordinary people u treat them like u close one eye only bcoz no pangkat ma...nak tak nak jer layan..but for me..just treat ur patient equal and hear their problem..so they will see u work like professional..God choose you to do this work..so do with love and care..my job are the noble work..that why i choose this for my profession.
And one story i want to share with u all,the beautifool life i had since working here..i've been scold by this human that we all call suster..sister la..kepala jururawat tu..this person many people dislike her sooo much!including me!ngeeee..--->(evil laugh) why the bcoz?becoz she marah me no hulu no hilir..nadai ulu nadai ili meh ko iban..suka ati mak bapak ya jak..so i was stunt..becoz i dont know what accually my mistake is..what i do is..my other colleague in ward recieve called from her department asked to indent some stuff,so she complete the indent form and me--.over rajin that time,offer myself to send the indent form.when i reach at the depatment,she asked me to see her and scold me like crazy monkey.in my heart just mummbling "from now on..i promise myself..not to RESPECT you anymore!u look not professional n like a mad cow.." i can feel my face turn red,if can i want to punch her face n go away..but i just smile at her n left her talking to herself..malas nak layan..the paper form i bought from ward i just throw inside the bin..want to asked her to eat that paper..sabar...sabar...
So...until now..when i see her...sorry to say la..i've no respect to u anymore,becoz u dont know how to respect your staff..THE END..enough of gossipping..may the Lord forgive her..for me..ermmm..wait la..still can feel the pain.


Huuuhhh...some of my beautifool life at work...but not forgetting the beautiful life also..will tell u later la k..hikhik..